So I went to work, I did a lot of keyword research, I drove home, ate dinner, watched TV, and fell asleep.  You might say that I’m in something of a rut.  I might even be depressed.  You see when you and a girl are building up something between you and are really close but at the same time really distant and neither of you realizes the depth of your feelings or at least won’t come out and admit it, then that’s how things are going to be.  Then she goes out drinking with some British rock star and decides she really likes him and now they’re involved and, while she still has feelings for you even if she doesn’t consciously realize them, you’re still alone in the end.  So I feel like I should be doing something new with my life.  I know a little about meditation, but it only clears my mind, it doesn’t help solve any of my problems and go forward.  I tried to take up origami, but I never just sat down enough and practiced.  I don’t know what to do with myself anymore.  Maybe I should try to do some charity work or something or clean up the environment.  Or maybe I’ll just sit around, writing on my blog about how heartbroken I am.  Yeah, that’s probably what I’ll end up doing.  That and writing about Grand Theft Auto 4.  It’s awesome.